Unaccustomed earth

i don't know .. but i can't speak well.. is it the language problem..
as i think now i never had full fledge conversations in english before..
for technical stuff i am okay.. but for day today activities or when have to
things clear when you want to get the expectations or set the expectations it
gets difficult for me.. i stumble for words.. i manage it.. but to me seems
it is rather stream of different words than a sentence...
I don't know how to improve upon this problem... i watch english movies, sitcoms
all the time.. but with whom can i practice now? only solutions it seems is to
have conversations with people here as long as possible..
but then there is other problem.. i face this in marathi also.. i am not
good at conversations.. small talks... i feel very uncomfortable while talking
with anybody.. my default state is remain silent.. silent and listen..
i try to use same old words again and again... but deep down i know what the problem
is ...

Only human beings can talk.. can express themselves through talking then why?
why? .. i don't know why.. maybe i haven't really mixed with people... never
in my town .. because elite state of family.. and in elite i mean that
we speak very good marathi (puneri marathi.) Culture of our family is more
fine than the others around in town ( we think subconsciously).. because
all of our relatives are in city.. so city touch and all. People in town
also think differently about us because of above reasons also and because of
our skin colors.. i always feel alien anywhere i go... no place is mine to claim

Every where it is unaccustomed earth...